Havent written in a few days.
its been a dark lonely few days.
I’m pretty sure the guy has completely given up on me. and it feels as if hes just using me to get through this truck situation. my heart hurts.
the situation with the kids has gotten no better. therapy session tonight with those involved. i’m not ready for that.
Why cant we just erase the memory of bad things?
why cant i just forget what happened and move on?
clearly i’m an asshole now cause I have so much more anxiety because of it.